This will be my last post.
Im sorry.
Stay strong, guys.
Stay beautiful.

I‘m sorry to let you all down like this.

I fucking hate how people think I cut for attention.

Are you fucking kidding me?
My self harm has been my biggest secret since I was 11 fucking years old.
It‘s taken over my life and done nothing but caused me pain and suffering, both physically and emotionally. I‘ve lost friends because of it. I‘ve accidently been the cause of other people cutting and then feeling guilty as all hell about it. I‘ve tried so fucking hard to KEEP it a secret, but I cant do that forever, now can I? Those scars will be there for the rest of my life. I‘ve accepted it as a part of who I am, and I post the pictures/videos (WITH TRIGGER WARNINGS BTW) that I do because its MY way of venting. I dont mean to hurt anyone. I wouldnt even care if no one saw the posts, but tumblr is like my diary because I‘ve lost all my friends in real life due to my severe depression.
If I was doing this for attention, I‘d be like a self harm version of one of those stupid fucking pro-ana blogs or whatever. But I‘m not. I tell people NOT to cut. I try to help others STOP cutting because I dont want them going through the pain and lonliness I‘ve gone through for so many years now. Cutting is the most personal and secret part of my life, and when people tell me all I want is the attention…? Jesus christ. Shut the fuck up. Why the actual FUCK would I do that to myself for attention?! Why would I WANT to MUTILATE myself and cause SCARS that I will have FOR THE REST OF MY FUCKING LIFE for some temporary goddamn attention?! It‘s the stupidest, most idiotic thing I‘ve ever been accused of! I‘d give near anything to have people IGNORE my scars and cuts. But you know what? Sometimes its nice to vent. And tumblr is how i vent. And if my venting included media showing the reality of what I do to myself? Then so be it. Its none of your business how I vent my emotions so I dont end up bottling them up and killing myself or something.

Just dont fucking tell me that all I want is attention, okay? Cause I dont. I‘d rather be left alone.

My friend: So does Tumblr have, like, a dark side?
Me: ...
Me: Tumblr is the dark side.